I know those who have been following me for a while, know my infertility struggle. I just wanted to give a little update because my blogging might be suffering some. It’s funny because you now know WAY more than people in our actual lives!
A little back story, for those of you who don’t know…
My husband and I have been trying to conceive for 5+ years. I had a OBGYN, who was very ignorant. We started fertility treatment in December of last year. Turns out, I had to have surgery. I was fighting a battle with insurance for 3 months because they did not want to cover it. It’s something that my OBGYN should have taken care of. I’ve had A LOT of issues and she kept telling me it was due to “stress.” So, I quit my job the day after we started fertility treatment because I wanted to be stress free. Turns out, I had endometriosis, a polyp and PCOS! Guess what? I had no idea. So, all that wasted time. No matter, my fertility doctor is amazing and one of the best. I finally got my insurance to pay for my surgery in April. I then started medicated treatment in May. Guys, I had to start all these meds and diets 3 days before my birthday! It’s been a rough summer. I’ve been home a lot because I can’t travel much with the meds. These meds are no joke and I feel ill a lot.
We had two medicated attempts in May and June. We were all so excited because everything looked great. Both months ended up in failure. This last month (July) we decided to do an IUI (intrauterine insemination). It costs more money but we are hoping to just get pregnant. We’ve wanted this for so long and we are so ready. By the way, insurance has covered nothing after April. It’s really stupid for them to keep telling me this is not “medically necessary.”
Anyways, I found out on Tuesday that my IUI failed. I knew going in that chances of it working the first time are low. We still had such high hopes because I had two huge follicles and my husbands counts were great. The emotional and mental toll this is taking on my is hard to explain. The two-week wait is unbearable, and it’s so hard to not be too hopeful and not be too doubtful. It’s a horrible line to walk.
After yesterday, I have not wanted to pick up a book. I need to take a break from reading. I just don’t have the head space and that’s also sad. Instead, I’m binge watching Netflix and trying to keep myself sane. I’m trying not to feel defeated and stay positive. The process starts all over in a few days. I’m really hoping this next month will be our month!!
This is not a ‘feel sorry for me’ post. I know some of you have been thinking of us and wishing us luck. Here’s some insight on what’s been going on. I want to be upfront because I will be having a hard time picking up a book and getting through them as quickly as I have been. I’ve been finding it harder to concentrate on my reading lately. I will be doing my best to comment and check out posts. I will still do tags, so tag away!! I’ll still be doing some of my weekly memes too. Basically, anything that doesn’t take a lot of brain power. If I pick up a book soon, it’s not going to be devoured in one day. Things will just be slower for a little while.
I want to thank everyone that has said kind words and who have been keeping us in your thoughts! I really appreciate it. <3<3<3 If it takes me a while to respond to your comments or check out your posts, this is why. Happy Reading 🙂