“I’ll carry you all the way
And you will choose the day
When you’re prepared to greet me
I’ll be a good mum, I swear
You’ll see how much I care
When you meet me
You thrill me, you delight me
You please me, you excite me
You’re all that
I’d been yearning for
I love you, I adore you
I lay my life before you
I only want you more and more”
-I’ve Been Waiting For You- Mamma Mia 2
Soooo… I’m pregnant!! This is going to be a long post, sorry! I honestly still can’t believe it some days. It’s been a journey that took over 5 years. I can’t even begin to explain this feeling. It’s quite crazy. I know that I’ve been taking some time off my blog. This has been the main reason. I never in my life expected how sick the first trimester would make me. I was constantly sleeping, had horrible headaches and the nausea.. oh goodness.. It’s constant and ALL day. It is rough! I just couldn’t read or do much of anything. I am feeling better and better each day. I’m finally picking up books again! It’s still slow and I can’t read much on days I have headaches but I’m getting there. I’m just about in my second trimester now! Woot!
Baby M is due on May 28!
It started off a bit scary. We had our second IUI done on LABOR DAY! How funny. Well, it worked! I tested the day before I was supposed to. I just had this feeling… and I still couldn’t believe my eyes when those two pink lines popped up. I saw those lines and ran downstairs!
The next day, I went to my RE to get blood work done. The nurse calls me 6 hours later to tell me my numbers were too low. There’s some drama here and a whole lot of stress that I’m not going to go into. Let’s just say the nurse was preparing me that I was having a miscarriage. Luckily, my numbers more than doubled 48 hours later! Everything looked normal and good. The following week, I had my first ultrasound and it confirmed that I was in fact pregnant!
I will NEVER be able to explain the feeling I had when 3 weeks later we went back for my 8 week ultrasound and heard baby’s heartbeat. OH. MY. GOSH. <3!! It has been so stressful and the worry was so intense. I’ve tried for so many years to get pregnant and never thought much about what I would worry about after! I still get a bit paranoid and scared between each doctor visit.
I had my 11 week ultrasound and it looks like a baby… My husband was freaking out! He was so excited and it was beautiful. ❤ Baby looks like a gummy bear and I have never loved anything more in my life. Baby was moving around like crazy and very camera-shy. I graduated from my RE that day and it was bittersweet. I will be forever grateful to Dr. Neeoo Chin for helping our dream come true. He is such an amazing, caring and brilliant doctor!
I just met with my new OB last week and that went well. I got to hear baby’s heart beat with a doppler. ❤ I really love the team I have now. I’m so grateful that my RE was able to recommend an amazing OB.
The point besides announcing, is I’m back. I’m hoping to really get back into the swing of things! ❤ We are making it “official” tomorrow. I figured, I should post on here too. Let you guys know what I have been up to. I’ve missed you all! Thanks to everyone, who has given me kind words and sent positive thoughts throughout this journey. I’m so thankful!
“I’ve never felt this strong
I’m invincible, how could this go wrong?
No, here, here’s where we belong
I see a road ahead
I never thought I would dare to tread
I held you close to me
Felt your heart beat
And I thought: I am free
Oh yes, and as one are we
In the now and beyond
Nothing and no one can break this bond”
My Love, My Life- Mamma Mia 2
To all my followers, who are still fighting the fight…
I didn’t expect to feel guilt. I’m in a couple of groups, dealing with infertility and then you graduate to a pregnant group. It felt horrible to leave all those lovely ladies behind. There should be no losers when it comes to this. It’s so unfair. I know that there have been several ladies, with blogs about infertility, who have followed me the last couple months. I just want to say, everyone’s journey is different and just don’t give up HOPE. I know that it’s a lot harder said than done. I really had a hard time hanging on. There were so many obstacles with insurance, surgery and finances. We were literally trying to decide if we were going to start IVF in two weeks, when we found out I was pregnant. Please, don’t give up! ❤ I know that some of you will unfollow me. I totally understand how you feel. I’ve been there. Each pregnancy announcement over the years just hit harder and harder. I have felt so weird about posting this because I know how you will feel. If anything, just don’t give up and lots of baby dust~ ❤